leiyue

i spent time hoping it wouldn't break

i spent time taping all the pieces

thousands of pieces

i hope you feel this pain

i hope you die

and pick up your own ashes speck by speck with your bare hands

evil is shattering the vase,

evil is taping the vase,

evil is telling you to fill in the cracks with gold and make something brand new

better

blood is on my hands and i'll leave this be

broken

you did it,

so watch

i did it,

so ill watch too

sit still

no fumbling

look

you idiot

you thought you could unbreak something?

some mistakes can't be made

learn a lesson but you can't unmurder someone so what good does the lesson do?

bring them back from the dead?

people die

that's how it goes

look

look harder

look at it

this is the kind of thing you wish you would never write

I got this tablet when I was 13, and I've used it up til now (technically a little less because I ended up sending in the first one with a warranty for a replacement). It's a smol little Wacom Bamboo Create I got for $60, but it's served me so well and I'm so used to it now. I'm pretty sure most people professionally use the larger screen ones but I planned on never parting with this boi until it died. I suppose it is now finally time. The pressure is getting weaker and weaker, and I'm basically drawing on 100% opacity all the time and it's sometimes still not enough.

I'll be given a new one from school when I start this fall anyway, and I'm sure I'll adapt to it in time (it's one of the large screen ones). But I've always said drawing materials don't matter because I've drawn basically everything with this $60 small thing. I had a sort of pride with it XD. If Bamboo wasn't discontinued I'd literally get a new one of the same thing; why not, it works well enough for everything I want to do.

RIP Treasured Bamboo Tablet

~2013 - 2021

As a bonus, here's the first painting I painted with this tablet:

Good memories :)))

Please join me in mourning, thank you

(now back to finishing my speedpaint, which is actually getting more and more difficult as the life leaves my pen)

Creating custom zoom backgrounds XDXDXD

So a bit of context for people not using Zoom/use it but don't know this-- you can set a custom background, and Zoom will automatically cut out your face so it looks like you're in front of the background. (Go to the arrow next to 'start video' and click 'choose virtual background'.)

So this is how my room normally looks:

But I get to change it up whenever I want :'). I think next week I'm gonna have a battleship crash through my room.

Unfortunately no one commented on the pepes.. I wonder if they think those might be real pictures in the background and don't want to comment in fear of insulting my room decorations LMAO.

for those also in zoom university/high school show me your custom virtual backgrounds (side note I'm not trying to hide my face particularly-- I know you can find it pretty easily like on my artstation.. just felt like it today though xd)